still is a bookwork project that had been hovering in my thoughts for many years but it wasn’t until sometime in 2022 that I started to physically work on some early formats and drafts.
In order to “think” through some of the ideas, I needed to literally build and print out mock ups and to work on them with my hands. Decisions about scale; movements, rhythms and interrelationships; materials (paper, etc.) and of course the text and image based content was a slow and ever evolving process.
I was curious about how my process might intersect and mingle with memory, research and the challenges and shifting circumstances of my daily life.
While some of the poems and images in still had previous iterations, often as part of an artist bookwork, a video piece, a postcard project or an installation, I reconsidered and in some cases rebuilt them alongside pieces that were written, photographed or painted more recently once this process of physical thinking was underway.
I envisioned this piece as a gathering. The various images, poems and texts don’t appear chronologically but they also don’t take their place upon the pages randomly. When context shifts, often so does meaning. And I was interested in how the various pieces related and played off each other across spines, over pages and between the covers of this bookwork … how proximity, positioning and layering as well, might also shift a reading.
The following are some of the facing pages within still.
interior title page
page 1
pages 6-7
pages 8-9
pages 10-11
pages 12-13
pages 14-15
pages 20-21
pages 22-23
pages 24-25
pages 36-37
pages 38-39
pages 40-41
pages 46-47
pages 52-53
pages 54-55
pages 78-79
pages 80-81
pages 82-83
pages 114-115
pages 116-117
pages 118-119
pages 124-125
pages 126-127
pages 128-129
pages 136-137
pages 140-141
pages 142-143
pages 144-145
pages 146-147
pages 168-169
pages 192-193
pages 194-195
pages 198-199
In December 2025, I held the first finished copy in my hands. Initially my hope was to print, hand bind and disperse seventy-five copies by my seventy-fifth birthday however I realize now that this is not realistic. The bookwork is 214 pages and printing and hand binding is a very slow process for me. I do hope however, to get a few copies printed and bound by this summer.
While this bookwork is not a memoire, to me it does feel like it carries my life.
The bookwork’s dimensions are approximately 47 cm (H) X 31.75 cm (W), when the bookwork is closed. So when the bookwork is open, the span of the facing pages is 47 cm (H) X 63.5 cm (W).